For a long time, I thought that I was crazy. Although an unsubstantiated diagnosis, my emotions seemed volatile so at the very least, this made me the craziest of the sane. I tried everything to turn the crazy off, but nothing seemed to help: medications (prescription and herbal), self-help books, tapes and etc. You name it, I tried it.
One of the most difficult things about self-betterment is how much it affects your day to day relationships. As one changes so will your relationships. It’s a fact. For me, this has been rather challenging in regards to my healthier self because it's difficult to redefine boundaries within established relationships. We have all heard the cliché that your friends reflect who you are so what do you do when you change and they don’t?
What does it mean to be o.k.? I’ve been wondering this a lot lately. "How are you" being the most common greeting, there's no way to avoid wondering, especially since I'd burst into tears when asked this automated greeting over the last two months. While undergoing difficult times, this salutation feels like fingernails on a chalk board and this is not exclusive to grief.